This is the first time in over 10 years that I’m not seriously dating someone or in a relationship during Christmas.  I guess in a way I’m happy that I didn’t have to buy a bunch of presents for a significant other because I’m on a budget.  I tend to over spend on gifts because I enjoy buying thoughtful presents for people, that I know they’ll enjoy and usually don’t care about the cost.  Too bad, I rarely get the same in return.

Although I’m spending Christmas with my blended family this year, I still the feel the loneliness of not having a significant other during the holidays.  I guess it’s because I’m so used to being in a relationship.  Don’t get me wrong, being single does have its advantages, but I don’t think I’m cut out for the dating world for an extended period of time.  I’m kind of over it.

Sure, I’m thankful for having family, but there’s only so much family can provide for you.  They give you unconditional love but sometimes you need a little more.  The worst thing about being single has to be going through the holidays alone.  Don’t really like this feeling but I know 2010 can only get better.

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